An old man story 21

Welcome to our page 21, an old man story, 

This is an old man story
This is a photo of an old man working in the farm a long time ago. Yes a long time ago farmers were collecting wheat by hand, it was hard work to grow and then harvest wheat by hand; one should think of how long it would take to harvest a field. But then there was no other ways available, so they were stuck to do all this hard work and they accepted it. 
We know that usually life is hard for some people, so when we think about the farm life of the older generation, we feel sorry for them. It is so even today in different ways of life, it is up to the individual to make the best of his own life; because the meaning of life, is whatever you want it to be, just like the notice beside here.  

This is an old man story

This article is part of an old man life story and the continuation of our previous hub, my life my struggles, the link My life my struggles, if you want to check it out

Dear readers, even though here I am going to lament again about the life that I had to live when I was young, one should keep in mind that life is what it is, so, we should accept life the way it is and try to do the best from what one has learned from life, that is the only positive thing that nobody and nothing can take it away from you, so your life experience will always count for something positive, provided you can use whatever could be positive in your life.
Now, let me explain about this old man story, perhaps I should have called this article my life story, including my life missed opportunities and my destiny, plus other things that happen in life, you are all invited to read my hub because this is my life story and nobody else and I invite anyone to read it, perhaps you would read it to compare my life story to your own life story, or just for curiosity sake, because you would like to know how some other people have lived their own lives. 
Dear readers here I have to say that, we all try to live our lives the best way we can, and we all wonder at those things that have happened to us during our lives, some of which might be good and some not that good; but once we have lived those life happenings they all seems to us as if they were a dream, they are like a sort of dream and distant memories that will come back to our minds when we try to remember them, sometimes we wonder at the amount of events that we have been through during our lives and it seems almost unreal that we have gone through all those things, but nevertheless it has been our life that we have lived and our life is a story that could be told if we want to, so, we would like to tell you our life story, perhaps just to compare our life story with other life stories, we would also like to tell our story hoping that there is somebody willing to read our life story, perhaps to compare it with his/her own life story, because our own lives could have been similar or very different from their story, but it is still is a story that could be told, because, as you know everybody of us has a story that could be told.
So, I have written here my own life story that I would like to tell you here, now, I don’t remember exactly how or when this idea of writing my own life story has started in my mind, perhaps I have written part of it down somewhere else for personal reasons, but I don’t remember now exactly why I wrote that article the first time.
But anyhow the reason why I started to write it does not matter much now, because as you know there are many people these days that write their own life story; so, I would like also to tell you my own life story for many reasons, and also to prove to myself that everyone of us as a story to tell, whether my story might or might not be as great as somebody else story it does not matter much, because here we are not competing who is telling the best story, we are only trying to tell our own life story, but every story has its merits and could become interesting in different ways; sometimes a story could be interesting just because it is unique in its own ways; I am saying this because I believe that I have had a rather hard life when I was young, and it was unique in its own ways, and therefore when I am writing my life story, I might be going to lament about this hard life that I have lived, but that was the way that I have lived my life, and that is the way that I am telling it.  
Because I am telling you about this hard life that I have lived, I feel a bit worried a bit, because I guess that not many people enjoy reading or listening to somebody else story, when all they do in their story is to lament their bad luck, these sort of stories are not much fun to read or listen to. But anyhow this is my real life story, and this is the reason why I have called this hub an old man story, because old men usually would be lamenting about things one way or another, so let us see what this old man (that is me) is going to tell about his life story, his observation and his missed life opportunities, while he is telling us his own life story and lamenting, but at the same time trying not to lament much for fear of being boring to the readers, as my life as not had anything that would attract the attention of the readers, it was a very simple life and no unforeseen even happened; I have just said this because today while I am editing this article, in the news there are these refugees that are running away from their native land in search of a better and safer life; one day these refugees could really have a story to tell; but that would be their story, so let me go back to my own story.   
Anyhow, even though I am writing my life story, I believe that I have still a lot to learn how to write my own biography, but I am going to try anyhow;  Autobiography - How to Write Your Autobiography, but let us continue.
My life missed opportunities
Here I would like to continue to tell you my life story, because it makes me remember all the memories and experiences that have shaped my life, so let me tell you my own special life story from the very beginning of my life, where I am going to tell you who I am, where have I been where I am now and how I got here, and here and now I am writing my own life story in hub pages. I am writing this story hoping that one day my family and friends might read my story and understand a bit more about me.
So as I have said, I have decided to tell you my own life story, because of something that has happened to me recently during my life; you see this something has pushed me to start writing many things including my own life story, so this is also the reason why I am writing now. You see, now that I am in my early sixties, and therefore I am in the later part of my life span. I have to say that although I am an old man and therefore experienced with life and with what life can throw at us and sometimes it can be rather bad; one of my latest experience has made me feel so inadequate and frustrated lately, for not being able to reach out and make happen, what I wanted so desperately to happen. And this is one of the reasons, or perhaps the most important reason, why I have started to write my own life story here and also go public in Hub Pages.
I have to say here also, that to be able to write in Hub Pages and have my own article in a public place to be read from anybody makes me feel proud of myself, since I have never believed that I would be able to do that, even if I am doing it only in a small way; this makes me feel that I have fought back that feeling of being inadequate and now I feel more confident about myself, just because I am writing my story in Hub Pages, but let us go back to my life story.   
Anyhow, I have also to say that I have felt so many other times before that feeling of being inadequate during my life, which I believe that it has been all because; I was put in a disadvantaged position when I was young, and for that reason I was not able to better myself to a satisfactory standard at that time, which otherwise I would have been able to achieve if I had the chance, so, these are my laments in this life story and these laments I am telling you.
For these lost chances I can’t blame anybody, and I can’t even blame my mother for putting me in such disadvantaged position, when I was very young, because she was forced from disastrous and tragic events beyond her control. So I have come to the conclusion that I can only blame Fate, because it struck a terrible blow to our family when I was very young.
Therefore, if in my younger years I had been in a position to go to high school at least for a few more years, or perhaps as long as my capacity to learn was used to the maximum; Then I could have learned whatever they teach at school, and at the same time as I would have been in a more social environment, I would have been able to improve my social and communication skills while I were at school, those skills which are so important to communicate well with the rest of the community.
Therefore, if I had acquired those social skills when I was young, I would have been accepted better socially, and I would have felt happier with myself, instead of feeling sometimes left out from the main stream, and feeling concerned and isolated.
You see; if I would have had a chance to learn more at high school, then I would have learned more at the time when I was young, and from that extra education I could have been more successful later on in my life, because I could have used my acquired knowledge, and those social skills which I never had the chance to learn then, because if I had, I could have achieved better things and ripped more and better rewards from within this society that we are living in today, which seems to me that it is more and more demanding in these social aspect.
This is one of those things that has made me feel sometimes inadequate and it has followed me most of my life. You see, those social skills that I have been talking about must be learned when one is young, while frequenting high school and mixing with society around yourself, so that these social skills would become part of one self and therefore one can use them to their own advantage all their life long. For me it was not like that at all and most of those skills that we require in life I had to learn bit by bit the hard way, the best way I could.
Anyhow, about this issue of feeling inadequate is going to be written in one of our hubs called, Hello my world, where I am going to sound like a rebel and break out of this life drawback in a drastic way, where I will try to change my own way of thinking; but now let us continue to follow our own ways, and our own destiny the way that we have always done.   

Perhaps we have our own destiny

Today I have to say that I feel that there might be something called a destiny, so one might be born to live a certain way of life, or perhaps our destiny is already written in God’s book of our own life and in a way we are forced to live our lives according to what is written in it, therefore our life is going to be influenced by some life events that are behind your control. Now I don’t know what to think about what I have just said, but somehow I believe there is a sort of destiny for every one of us, but I hope that it is not completely fixed and it can be modified to a certain extend if we have the opportunity and continue to try our best, we might be able to improve our destiny. You see if we believe that our destiny is fixed then there is no way that we could change it, so, it is better if we believe that we can change it somehow, but anyhow things happen for a reason, so they affect our life one way or another. Anyhow I believe that there is a sort of destiny because of what has happened to me.    
Anyhow, dear readers as I have already said, I have come to blame my fate for most of my life short comings and pains. Because I believe that when I was born, I was born with a good chance to live a better life; but it was not to be, that is the reason why I think that perhaps it was my destiny. So my dear readers if you happen to read my life story, I am sure that you may very well ask. Why is it that I am telling you mostly sad stories? Is it possible that in my whole life, I had so many sad happenings and not any happy ones?
Well I should say here that I have had a few happy happenings, but if I had to tell you about my happy happenings they would be so few and very boring indeed, and nobody could or would be interested to hear them anyhow, because they seem to me that they are not important.
So, I would like to talk now most of all, about those happenings that have affected my life in a negative way, one could say that they have made me struggle during my life, as I have already said in my last hub, My life my struggles, this is the link to my life struggles,
 My life my struggles 
I know dear readers that you might be thinking that it is meaningless to write down all this useless stuff, as nobody might be willing to read it or get any benefit from it:
But I am thinking that if my writings survive in a hidden corner just for a generation or two, and even if my writings are not well written, as my English written skills are not the best at the present time. But I believe that in several years when time passes away, then whoever would be reading my writings will find them more interesting, because life was so different in the old days, because we used to live in a different way, you see, I have started to live my life long before the great changes of nowadays, so, this difference is what might make this life story interesting.
And if what I am writing here is going to be useless anyhow, I will do it just for practice, so that I would be able to improve my English language and also my writing skills. So that I could feel more confident within my own self, and therefore I would not feel to be in such a hopeless and desperate position; like that time when something happened to me at a certain stage of my life, but at that time I was not able to cope with it properly, and because I wasn’t able to cope that matter in my case became also very painful, because of what I wanted to reach and do but I wasn’t able to, here I am talking about a matter that was and indeed is a very delicate matter of personal nature, so I am not going to disclose anywhere willingly.

But I would like to tell you that my helpless and desperate feelings, I will write them later on including what was it that caused me so much distress; But this distress has also made me come to a decision, which is that I have to improve myself in my lacking writing skills. So, now although I am getting old, I will try very hard if I can to improve myself, so that, my improvements may still help me in my later years to reach where I have failed before. You see this is my view about life; when you fail you get up dust yourself and try again harder.
Therefore by writing my own life story, I will also help myself to improve my English and my communication skills, which after all they are the art of being able to write or to say, the right words at the right time with the right meanings; since saying meaningful and skilful phrases is just like when one writes them down.
So please don’t be annoyed by my life story and allow me to write a few things that I have gone through during my own life. I would like to write them; so that I could show you how hard life was then and how hard life can sometimes be, since this applies particularly to me; because during my life so many things have changed since I was a child; I know of course that things will still keep changing nowadays and in the future, and very likely even faster than before, but now because we know of the oncoming changes we are able to accept them more easily than before, and therefore they will not seem that bad to us anyhow, because at least we believe that we know where we are going in the near future.
I believe that this article is becoming too long, because today people seem very busy and don’t like very long stories, so I better stop writing it now. But, an old man life story, IS TO BE CONTINUED: With another hub called, my farm life experience.  See you next time.


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